BLOG CHALLENGE #12: What do you think you are most misunderstood for?


I am most misunderstood for my mental issues. Everyone that doesn’t know me or understand the illness (which is most people) automatically think I am a danger to them & society. Nothing could be further from the truth. I am not a danger to anyone. Yes, I have grand mal seizures, but does that make me dangerous? Nope, not in the least. I do not seem very social but that is because of my Agoraphobia. Again that doesn’t make me dangerous. I am tired of seeing parents & people look at me like I am going to whip out a gun & start a shooting spree. Yes, I don’t like being in crowded places, they make me think I am going crazy, but I don’t own a gun nor am I ever inclined to shoot anything. Hell, I can’t even kill a bloody mouse that was in my house & didn’t get killed in the trap. Know what I did? I took it to my father & he killed it. Same with the bloody snake I found in my bed. Did I kill it? Nope, took it outside & released it back into the woods. Now does that sound like someone who is mentally unstable??? I don’t think so.

People also think since I am very quiet I am stuck up. The real issue? I don’t make small talk easily. In fact, I am horrible at it. So I tend to be very quiet & people either think I am stuck up or extremely shy. Get me started on something I am passionate about (like animals, knitting, crafting, reading, etc) & I’ll talk your ear off, lol. Bug again, people don’t see that about me. They just see the shy & quiet female sitting off in the corner being the loner that she is.

My point here, is please, be understanding of that quiet person that seems to be out of place. They may not be stuck up or shy, they may just not be good at handling social situations. Be understanding of other people. Give them time to warm up to the situation.

Blog entry prompts & ideas

I stole these from Jem. ducks & hides

What made you choose your career?
Describe your perfect holiday
Tell us about a family tradition you love
How do you feel about your body?
If you could meet one person, who would it be and why?
You inherit a million [insert currency here] — what do you spend it on?
If you have a ‘significant other’, tell us how you met
What’s your biggest fear?
Name 5 bad habits you don’t normally admit to
What element of your personality do you like the most?
Share a favourite recipe
What was your favourite story as a child?
5 things you learned as a result of blogging
What’s your favourite ‘cheer you up’ movie?
Show us a day in your life
Do you have a blog writing process, if so, what is involved?
What 3 things would you tell 13 year […] Continue Reading…

My WoW Characters

Thanks to Jessica, Grace, Katherine, & Zeb I have gotten hooked on World Of Warcraft (WoW). I played the free version off & on for the last few years, but never bought the game. Jessica & Grace kept on about how fun it was & so I decided to give it another try. This time I had help figuring out what I was supposed to do & how to do it. After about two (2) weeks of solid playing I noticed that there was a sale on the base game for $10. I snapped it up & got a monthly subscription to the game.

I do not consider myself to be a hard core WoW player. I mostly just do the quests & level up. I rarely play with anyone unless Jessica or Grace are running me through dungeons. They are both high level & I am a measly 40 level (at the time of typing this) so they can one shot everything & I don’t die, lol.

My Characters

You can click on the pictures for larger views

This is Kinthua or Kinthy for short. She is a Pandarian Hunter. She normally runs with a tiger pet named […] Continue Reading…

BLOG CHALLENGE #11:Describe what your biggest fear is and why.

My biggest fear (I, honestly, have several) is a multiple of fears, but I will talk about one of the main ones.

Fear of the Pitch Black

When I was about six (6) months old, I got really sick. Mom took me to the doctor & he gave me penicillin for the illness. Mom was very careful about what she gave me so she only gave me a half of the dose. She said that I started screaming at everyone. Any hands or movements scared me to death. Mom took me back to the doctor & he told her that it was a severe reaction & that if she had given me the full dose I might have died. So no more penicillin or any version of it for me.

Since then, if I am in a pitch black room or place I constantly see all kinds of hands (both human & monster) reaching for me out of the dark. I know that it is nothing, & sometimes can ignore it but with my anxiety disorder my mind takes off running with the fear. Hence, there is always nightlights in my house & my bedroom […] Continue Reading…

Gaming Part 2

This is a two (2) part blog post. This is the second one & the first one is here.

People I Watch

When I go to the office with Dad (almost every single day) I get to sit, greet clients, knit, & watch youtube or movies. So these are the youtube players that I watch all the time. I highly recommend you give them a try.

Vintage Beef

I have about 50 subscriptions to different Youtube accounts of ones that I watch every now & then, but those six (6) are the main ones I watch every time there is a new video out.

This one has been recommended by Katherine as one to watch. I haven’t gotten into watching him yet, but so far he sounds like it is going to be good.


My Play Style

Since I never grew up playing games (at least this is why I believe I am this way) I never learned to play with others in video games. Hence, why I do not join public servers or normally […] Continue Reading…

Gaming Pt. 1

This is a two (2) part blog post. This is the first one & the second one here.

Yeah, I do play games. Do I call myself a gamer? Nope, I don’t. I am very picky about my games & rarely spend any money on them. Basically, if I don’t get a free trial then I don’t play it most of the time. The one main time it was different was Minecraft. The two main games I play are Minecraft & World of Warcraft (WOW). Minecraft I paid for back when it was in Beta. WOW I only play the trail version. I just can’t bring myself, on my limited budget, to purchase the game & a monthly subscription.

I used to play the Sims. I was completely addicted to it. Even though it took the game a hour (a hour!) to load on my computer at the time. Then one day for some reason I took the time to total up the entire cost of the games & it floored me. I had spent over $2000 on the games & for what? Yes, I bought Sims 4 & the first expansion. Played it for a month & uninstalled it. It […] Continue Reading…

Is It Rude To Knit In Public

I came across this article via my twitter feed.

Is it rude to knit in public? – HowStuffWorks
— WEBS Yarn Store (@websyarn) July 27, 2015

So I went to the article {here} & read the article. Needless to say, it riled me just a bit.

Well, you all know that I am a knitter. I do it for multiple reasons. The main one? It helps control my anxiety & panic attacks. That means I can leave my house & go into public without a lot of panic attacks. Yes, I take medication for my anxiety, but I automatically have a “flight or fight” response to any outside stimuli (crowds, loud noises, etc). For crying out loud, if I sit directly underneath a speaker at the movie theater I can have a panic attack1. So even though my medication allows me to actually get myself out the door most mornings, I still have anxiety attacks with any other stimuli. It is a horrible mental condition to have & it isn’t made easier by the general public. Some people when they see you are having a problem will actually make it worse even when you have […] Continue Reading…

FitBit Stats for June 22 – June 28, 2015

Total Steps: 26,416
Total Distance: 11.72 Miles
Total Floors Climbed: 16
Total Cals Burned: 20,641
Calories In Vs Out: -11148
Weekly Total: 20643 Cals Burned / 5995 Cals Eaten / -3500 Plan Deficit
Weight Change: 0.6 Lb
Avg Sleep Duration: 5 Hrs 21 Min

Blog Challenge #1: Your current Relationship or how you enjoy being single!

As far as romantic relationships are concerned I am single, thank goodness. I have yet to determine a reason, a desire, or use for a husband or boyfriend. My medication messes up my bodies natural “needs” so I don’t have my hormones driving me to do something I don’t need to do. Not to mention the the risk of STD’s or pregnancy that I don’t need or want. Nothing it 100% effective.

The best part of being single is the simple fact that I can do what I want & when I want. If I want to go out to see a movie I get to choose what I want to watch & when I want to watch it. I get to choose where to eat & what I want to eat (diet withstanding of course). I do not have to worry about what anyone else wants to do or eat unless I have chosen to go with them. I enjoy my single life & probably won’t change it until Dad and/or Brenda is gone. I like companionship but only when I want it. I tease & joke that I need a companion […] Continue Reading…

34 ‘Get to Know Me’ Blog Post Challenge

I am stealing this idea from Katherine. I have problems talking about myself so this should help me, eh?

This challenge is relatively easy, there is no start/end timeline, only that you write a post for each prompt listed below, and in whatever order you choose to complete them! Take it easy and have fun!

Your current Relationship or how you enjoy being single!
Where would you like to be in 10 years’ time?
What are your personal views on drugs and/or alcohol?
How do you identify spiritually?
Describe 1 Place you would like to visit and why.
Describe your earliest memory. (In vivid detail!)
What was the highest moment of your past year?
What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
How have you changed in the past 2 years?
What do you miss most from your childhood?
Describe what your biggest fear is and why.
What do you think you are most misunderstood for?
What was the hardest […] Continue Reading…

Weekly Totals 6-1-15 to 6-7-15

Total Steps 21,213
Total Distance 9.41 Miles
Total Floors Climbed 12
Total Cals Burned 20,313
Calories In Vs Out -14868
Weekly Total
20315 Cals Burned
5447 Cals Eaten
Weight Change 2.3 Lb
Lightest 358.0 Lb
Heaviest 360.3 Lb
Avg Sleep Duration 5 Hrs 33 Min
Avg Times Awakened 8
Avg Time To Fall Asleep 0hrs 10min

Weekly Totals 05/25/15 – 05/31/15

Not to shabby this week. I expect the current week is going to see greater distance walked & more steps. I have found that I can walk around the entire block without stopping or being in great pain. Now

Total Steps: 16,961
Daily Average: 2,423
Total Distance: 7.52 miles
Total Floors Climbed: 4
Total Calories Burned: 19,830
Calories In VS Out: -16,927
Weight Change: -5.1lb
Average Sleep Duration: 5hrs & 15min
Current Weight: 359.8lb

Strawberry Cheesecake Protein Shake

This is so good. Like drinking dessert.

1 scoop Syntrax Matrix 2.0 Simply Vanilla

1 tbsp Sugar Free Cheesecake Pudding Mix

1 cup Frozen strawberries

8oz of water

some ice


Put everything into a blender & blend till blended well. Pour into glass & enjoy.

Week of May 18 – 24

This was surgery week, so the info is not that great. So I am just going to give you the Fitbit info.

Total steps: 9, 311
Total Distance: 4.13 miles
Total floors climbed: 4
Total Calories Burned: 18,968
Calories In VS. Out  18,971 cals burned/1560 cals eaten
Weight Change: 3.5lbs
Avg Sleep: 3 hrs 56 min


Week of May 3 – May 9 2015

OK, I am just laying things out here. I will probably edit the layout this week & next week a bit. I have surgery next week & so I plan on doing a lot of site work while recovering *hoping to at least*

Sunday May 3, 2015

Calories: 1070/1500
Carb: 90/94
Protein: 78/188
Steps: 2,559
Distance:1.14 miles
Stairs: 5

Monday May 4, 2015

Calories: 1741/1500
Carb: 204/94
Protein: 78/188
Steps: 4638
Distance: 2.06 miles
Stairs: 1

Tuesday May 5, 2015

Calories: 1289/1500
Carb: 144/94
Protein: 74/188
Steps: 2540
Distance: 1.12 miles
Stairs: 1

Wednesday May 6, 2015

Calories: ?/1500
Carb: ?/94
Protein: ?/188
Steps: 2520
Distance: 1.12 miles
Stairs: 2

Thursday May 7, 2015

Calories: 1528/1500
Carb: 79/94
Protein: 98/188
Steps: 3607
Distance: 1.6 miles
Stairs: 2

Friday May 8, 2015

Calories: 1548/1500
Carb: 164/94
Protein: 63/188
Steps: 2740
Distance: 1.22 miles
Stairs: 1

Saturday May 9, 2015

Calories: 1032/1500
Carb: 150/94
Protein: 60/188
Steps: 3031
Distance: 1.34 miles
Stairs: 1

Sunday May 10, 2015
**Note: Dad’s Birthday, went to Red Lobster & had ice cream hence the horrible numbers**

Calories: 2985/1500
Carb: 274/94
Protein: 101/188
Steps: 4304
Distance: .13 miles
Stairs: 2


This is basically what I am planning on telling you every week.  If there are other stats that you would like to know, let me know & I’ll see what I can do.  I may change the format & I may not.

Green Leaves

Whoa! It has been a very long time since I put up a knitting post. It changes now! LOL! B asked me to make a scarf that would transform into a cowl via buttons. Ok, I can do that. So I got some pretty sparkly green yarn
I found a simple chevron scarf that I liked. Started it, hated it, made my own pattern, lol.

One of the main reasons I don’t make scarves is that the length gets in my way as I knit it. I hate taking the extra time to turn everything around each time I start a new row. I knew that I could bundle the length up, but didn’t want to use a binder clip due to the chance it would crush or leave a mark on the knitting. I am sure someone else has hit on this idea, but I didn’t find it when I looked.

Isn’t it pretty? Looks like fir trees running up the scarf. I wanted something different than things I had done before. It is quite a bit longer than what this picture shows. But I didn’t get a pic of the full length yet. I split the […] Continue Reading…

Food Diary Status

I know I have been faithfully doing the daily post, but honestly it is getting to become quite tedious.  So I think I am going to change it to once a week. Maybe just giving a breakdown of how my week went.  I am not having enough time to get the post done daily & it upsets me when I don’t get done what I “need” to get done.  So I think I am going to do it this way.  Post it every Monday & just give a run down of the days & totals.

I also got a Fitbit Charge over the weekend & so I think I will add the steps, sleep, floors, etc to the run down also.  In all truthfulness my diet doesn’t change. I eat the same things over & over again so I don’t really see how it helps anyone.  I am sorry if I have let you down but I have to maintain this blog the way I can & doing it daily is just more than I can handle along with getting ready for surgery, online issues, private issues, depression, stress, etc.

I will set up the first weekly one to happen on […] Continue Reading…

Food Diary 04-29-15

Calorie Intake: 1500 or less



 Syntrax – Nectar – chocolate truffle

 Frozen pre-sliced strawberries




 Orowheat  Oat Nut Bread 1 slize

 Pure Protein – Vanilla powder

 Frozen Peaches 1 cup

 Peanut Butter – creamy – 1 tbsp




 Beef Tips & Noodles






Daily Total