Hello 2019!

I realize that it is close to the end of January. When am I ever on time with anything other then my commission pieces, lol. There is quite a bit of things happening or things I am trying to get worked around & I thought I would share them with you all.

2019 Goals

Yeah, I decided that I would do goals again. Some of them I will achieve and some I won’t. I am ok with that.

  • Go on another vacation alone. Side Note: I doubt that I will manage this one due to not wanting to use my credit card at all.
  • Do not use my credit card for any reason.
  • Pay down my credit card. I should have it halfway paid off by the end of the year if I can manage not to use it.
  • Get at least 5 knitted or crochet items made & up for sale.
  • Write up the book reviews for the site at least once a month if not more.
  • Knit & crochet more.
  • Read more.
  • Get my logo finished & implemented.
  • Determine if I want a new theme or just continue to edit this theme to make it do what I want it to do.
  • Do my best to manage my anxiety & depression.
  • Go to my doctor appointments alone.
  • Try to improve my anxiety (for example, do more things that cause me anxiety to prove I can do it).
  • Try to improve my depression (for example, working towards moving out of the place I currently live to an apartment).
  • Save every penny I can for my long term goals (next section).

Long Term Goals

These are the goals that I am working towards. I do not foresee these goals being achieved until at least two (2) years.

  • Pay off my credit card entirely.
  • Get approved for a lower interest rate credit card.
  • Get rid of my high interest credit card.
  • Move out of my father & step-mother’s house.
  • Purchase a vehicle for myself. Side Note: I had to sell mine due to supposedly no room to park it at the house.
  • Go to California to meet up with Jess
  • Get an apartment with Jess providing that we get along well enough on my trip to meet with her in the town where all my doctors are.

So those are my current goals. I do not believe I will achieve all of those but I hope to achieve some of them. Here is hoping, lol. I will review these again at the end of the year like normal.

2018 in Review

So I thought I would go back over my goals for 2018 & see how I did. I did a quick look last night before typing this up & it didn’t look too horrible but I didn’t meet all of them. I never really thought I would though. So shall we see how I did?

1.) Do at least one book review a week (since I can read 4-5 books a week it shouldn’t be that hard).

I failed at this when my depression hit a hard time. I was doing fairly good at it. I may not have gotten one done a week but it averaged out to about one a week when I was managing to write them up. Oh, I never stopped reading. I


read. I just stopped being able to write up my thoughts on the books I read.

2.) Complete at least one blog post a month (I am not pushing myself on this)

I really failed on this. I don’t consider my book reviews as blog posts so I didn’t count those. Again I blame my depression & the fact I, honestly, do not believe my life & my activities all that interesting to anyone. No one wants to listen to me complain about my depression, anxiety, fibromyalgia, step-mother, & the other various issues in my life

3.) Go to Branson, MO on vacation for 2 nights by myself (hoping for this in Janurary 2018)

Well, I over achieved this one. I actually went to Las Vegas, NV all by myself in September. I took a flight, a taxi from the airport, checked into a hotel, gambled (won over $1500 & lost it all), used Lyft (even D & B have never used Lyft or Uber), & managed credit card issues by myself without having a complete break down. Only had to call Dad once to calm myself down. So yeah, this one I went above & beyond the goal.

4.) Finish paying off my credit card

Oh this was funny of me to actually think I would get this done. I make a whopping $730 a month which $500 of that goes towards rent. Yep, didn’t happen.

5.) With said paid off credit card go to California to visit Jessica at Oceanside for a few days.

This didn’t happen either. Didn’t get the credit card paid off and so this never could happen. It was a long shot & I knew that when I made it a goal.

6.) Start to pay off said credit card once again.

See number 4.

7.) Complete the CAL/KAL that Jessica & I are doing this year.

I actually completed this. I designed 10 knitted blocks. I also crocheted the 10 blocks that Jessica designed. Put them all together and made a blanket. I am so proud of myself for this. It was my first time designing knitting patterns.

8.) Complete a year of knitting & crocheting things for me & not everyone else (i.e. finish my cardigan, make me at least 4 pairs of socks, & finish my Sophie

Wwwwwweeeeellllll, I failed this one big time. Once again, I don’t think I made myself a single thing this year, lol. That is normal for me though. I did work on my cardigan while I was in Vegas, but I didn’t complete it. I spent most of my year working on Mish Mash KAL/CAL.

9.) Finally pull myself out of this damn well of depression I have been in for the last year (don’t know how well that is going to go but I am trying)

I had good times & bad times with my depression & anxiety this year. The holidays are always very hard on me. I hate the holidays & always hope to not hit the depression brick wall at the end of October but I always do. I look at it this way. I have survived and I remain alive so it is a win in my book. It will always be a constant battle with those two things for me.

So that is my year in review. I didn’t succeed in all my goals but I never do. I don’t ever expect to succeed at all my goal, but I do try. I will be typing up my goals for 2019 in a few days to have up.