Hello 2019!

I realize that it is close to the end of January. When am I ever on time with anything other then my commission pieces, lol. There is quite a bit of things happening or things I am trying to get worked around & I thought I would share them with you all.

2019 Goals

Yeah, I decided that I would do goals again. Some of them I will achieve and some I won’t. I am ok with that.

  • Go on another vacation alone. Side Note: I doubt that I will manage this one due to not wanting to use my credit card at all.
  • Do not use my credit card for any reason.
  • Pay down my credit card. I should have it halfway paid off by the end of the year if I can manage not to use it.
  • Get at least 5 knitted or crochet items made & up for sale.
  • Write up the book reviews for the site at least once a month if not more.
  • Knit & crochet more.
  • Read more.
  • Get my logo finished & implemented.
  • Determine if I want a new theme or just continue to edit this theme to make it do what I want it to do.
  • Do my best to manage my anxiety & depression.
  • Go to my doctor appointments alone.
  • Try to improve my anxiety (for example, do more things that cause me anxiety to prove I can do it).
  • Try to improve my depression (for example, working towards moving out of the place I currently live to an apartment).
  • Save every penny I can for my long term goals (next section).

Long Term Goals

These are the goals that I am working towards. I do not foresee these goals being achieved until at least two (2) years.

  • Pay off my credit card entirely.
  • Get approved for a lower interest rate credit card.
  • Get rid of my high interest credit card.
  • Move out of my father & step-mother’s house.
  • Purchase a vehicle for myself. Side Note: I had to sell mine due to supposedly no room to park it at the house.
  • Go to California to meet up with Jess
  • Get an apartment with Jess providing that we get along well enough on my trip to meet with her in the town where all my doctors are.

So those are my current goals. I do not believe I will achieve all of those but I hope to achieve some of them. Here is hoping, lol. I will review these again at the end of the year like normal.


I have been having a lot of issues with my anxiety & depression. Which is why my reviews, knitting photos, & other stuff has been so slow. I am trying to move on but it is hard when you lack motivation to do anything at all. My knitting, crocheting, & even playing World of Warcraft & Minecraft hold no interest to me. I am working with my shrink & therapist to try to get things back in normal working order, but it is taking quite some time. I am planning on a week long vacation in the middle of September that will take me completely away from everything here. Yes, I know running from my problems is not a good thing nor does it solve anything. I am well aware that my problems will either follow me or be waiting for me when I get home. I am looking at this vacation will be a rest & respite from the problems. A time for me to rest from the fight of surviving. I hope to come back refreshed or at least a bit less tired then I am now.

Sick Sick Hev

Well, it has been a whirlwind month. Last Sunday my father went into the hospital with pneumonia. Wasn’t a bad case but enough it kept him in there till Thursday. During which I had to complete his bookkeeping job at his office which is something I have no clue on how to do, so I have been stressed to the max. Brenda & I wound up sick & went to urgent care on Sunday only to find out it isn’t the flu but a virus infection. So we are both on antibiotics trying to function.

This is why there hasn’t been anything done with the book reviews, knitting, or crochet. I basically spend all day at the office handling clients & phones so by the time I make it home I am so tired and in pain I can’t even begin to imagine knitting, crocheting, or playing World of Warcraft (WOW). I have severely neglected my friends & am so appreciative that they understand & are not upset over it. I think he is turning the corner. He says he is coming down to the office for a bit this afternoon so maybe by next week he will be full time back at the office & that will be off my shoulders.

Thank you for being patient with me and the fact that I am severely running behind on everything.