Oh my goodness, one of the possible side effects of my Topamax is tooth decay. Well, when my Doctor prescribed it to me he told me that the decay was a rare side effect. Well, guess who has the rare side effect? 
Yep, me! I have been putting the Dentist off for about six months now, but finally my lower right canine & the one immediately to the left of it was hurting to bad. So I went. Bad bad bad, Hev. We did the complete set of x-rays & discovered that not only are my teeth decaying but they have already decayed to the point that the holes in them are deep & big enough that they need to come out. The pain I have is an infection that is running like crazy through my teeth & gums. So at the moment I am needing a full set of upper dentures & a partial set on the bottom. Though by the time I actually can get all the teeth extracted, I will probably loss all my teeth. I am going to be a toothless wonder, lol. *I am laughing through the tears* I can not believe that I am going to be 30 years old & have dentures. I could kill this medication, but I can’t stop taking it cause then my seizures would be worse. I am damned if I do & damned if I don’t. My dentist told me that even if I stopped taking it today the teeth are already gone. They were probably gone a year ago, but just weren’t hurting yet. So every month or so I will be extracting a tooth (that is all the pain I can stand at a time). This time I just about put my fist through the car window after it was over & the numbness wore off. Luckily, my dentist gave me a prescription for some pain killers & they started kicking in. But that has been my excitement for today. I will never extract two teeth at the same time again. Too painful for me. If you have a very tender mouth *ME* it will be very painful afterwards. My supper consisted of noodles & butter & even those my jaw was hurting from eating them. The gross part is I have a hole in the front of my mouth that looks about the size of the nail on my pinkie finger (though I am sure it isn’t). But the entire highlight of replacing me teeth is that the first time in my entire life I will have straight even teeth. That will be an experience I have never had. For that alone I can’t wait, but it will probably be a year or more in the making due to my pain endurance & money issues. but I am patient.
P.S. I am actually thinking of re-doing the layout again. I am crazy I know.
Instead of filling this post with more depressing news about how I am feeling I figured I would show you pictures this time. Yeah, it is mostly cross stitching. So if you don’t want to see that then don’t look any farther. Cross stitching is my hobby, so it is going to get blogged about. I am also going to try to blog more about my reading, but I am not good at writing reviews without giving away the story. So I am still working on that part. Anyhoo, moving on to the pictures.
My Beloved BOINK
Pages Book Club Bookmarks
I have been thinking of re-doing the galleries & making the original images bigger. I peeked at Hannah’s gallery & I like hers, but I know that on a slow connection it will take forever for it to load. I like my opening page for the galleries with the thumbnails to choose from but I am wondering if it wouldn’t be nice to have the bigger images show on the actual page galleries. What do you all think?
Side Note
If you are a member of the QBee then you have to head over & take part in the Valentine’s Lucky Dip 2010. It is such a blast. I have already made five valentines & am still making more. Melly & the others has also given this one a creative twist, but I am not going to tell you what it is. You have to go check it out. So get over there ASAP! 
I am still in that pit hole if depression. 
I have tried all month Jan-Feb to reach the top of this hole & it just isn’t getting there. I go through my days just ambling along, going through the motions of living. I honestly have no desire to do a single thing at all except sleep. Which I can’t do that all day cause 1.) my parents won’t let me 2.)the dogs won’t let me 3.) I wind up feeling like a bum if I do. I don’t feel like doing anything online, which you should be able to tell due to the fact half my bloody site is still down. My QBee quilt is still a mess & I need to have that up & running before the end of Feb. I am hoping to make my QBee quilt to match my web design, but I just have to find the desire to do it. I shouldn’t be hard, just getting the coding around to pull the correct files & such. I just have to do it.
Though at this point I think it would be a lot easier just to quit the QBee. I really don’t know if I am actually doing the club any good anymore. I used to be so excited & I couldn’t wait to get into the forums, now it seems like I have to drag myself there *but then I have to drag myself everywhere*. I just don’t know what to do. 
Well, after many bald spots, holes in the walls, & other choice words, the new theme is up & running. *HUGE sigh of relief* Never ever listen to your father when he swears that he will backup your hard drive before crashing it. He will forget & all your original files will go bye-bye. That is what happened. Usually when I create new WP themes I just copy & paste my HTML codes into the old WP files so that I know everything will work. I only add WP codes when I know that they will work or if I am testing things. Luckily, Jock actually managed to find an old copy of my index & comments *that Melly fixed up for me a long time ago* that I had sent to him for safe keeping. So once I had that everything was smooth sailing except for the simple fact that the comment page was refusing to load. Hmm…well after another hour of a hissy fit, I printed the index page (it worked on every other page) & went through it line by line & realized that the php call function to the comment page was missing. Can anyone say DUH! *insert a smack up side the head* Jock was sitting on the couch roaring with laughter at me. Not for long cause Desi tackled him for laughing at me. It isn’t like he saw it either so he shouldn’t have been laughing.
I hope you like the theme, cause I don’t know when I will change the design of it again. I may change the graphics & the colors, but for the design, I doubt it. I keep coming back to this style anyway. :roll:
is a horrible mess. I backed everything up, but like my blog database it doesn’t want to import. *pulls hair out in frustration* All I get is this error over & over.
Error
SQL query:
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– Dumping data for table `********`
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INSERT INTO *a whole bunch of geek stuff that I don’t understand but don’t want in the online universe*
MySQL said:
#1062 – Duplicate entry ‘1′ for key 1
So I am going through the member list (up to #185 as I type this) one by one to see who I have traded with. Once I have the list complete I will re-build my quilt. I am not even going to try to re-build my activities quilts or what not. I am just don’t have that much energy right now. I am sorry, I am trying to beat this depression but it isn’t working very well & I keep falling in deeper. I honestly thought about quiting the QBee, but then I have no idea why I changed my mind to be perfectly honest. All my friends would still be here I haven’t picked up any new ones because I just can’t get that excited anymore over anything.
I have to pretend so much all day that everything is fine so my parents don’t worry, that I just don’t have the energy or the ugh to pretend online to get excited. It is sad that you all are the ones that have to pay the price, but I don’t know any other way. I just can’t pretend for everyone. Plus you have the option of not reading these if you don’t want to.
I know I have the site pages on the site, but there isn’t anything in them. I haven’t gotten anything in them, I am still typing up the pages offline so don’t bother clicking them.
In my offline world, I am busy stitching & trying to pull together a theme for Amarantine & a design for my quilt. Don’t count of either web projects to be done any time soon. My seizures are getting worse & my brain is becoming very dysfunctional. I even put my cell phone in the fridge the other day thinking it was the bread. This is just one of many things I do that is off.
So I had to go to the Dentist yesterday which was an experience in itself let me tell you. I have a horrible fear of the Dentist that I have had since I was just a little girl. No, I am not going to give you an in depth story, let me just tell you that it involves bleeding mouth for about three days & lots & lots of pain. Ever since I have problems going to the dentist. I have a very tender mouth & when my “Adult” teeth came in my mouth wasn’t big enough to hold them, so they came in crooked. Well, we never had money for braces so I lived with them. Personally, my teeth have hurt since day one & I would rather just pull them all & not have any, lol. When they came in they hurt & they have hurt ever since.
So I went to Dr. Medlin in Republic, MO yesterday to see just how bad my teeth were. My Topamax destroys teeth & make them break. I usually avoid going to the dentist unless I am in agony or my teeth break off. Over the Christmas holiday one of my “Canine” *that is what I call the sharp pointy ones” broke & started hurting. Yesterday was the earliest they could get me in. Well, it stopped hurting, but I have several holes, cracks, chips, & breaks in my teeth as it is, so Mom decided to go ahead & see how bad things were. They were really really bad. 
I had a complete set of x-rays only to find out that I have two options. Extractions or crowns. Guess what? We can’t afford fancy dental work so it is extraction of my teeth. I am going to get to be a toothless wonder. :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen:
QBee Quilt
I got my qbee quilt set back up, but I have a horrible feeling that I am going to have to re-add every patch back into the database manually. The SQL isn’t wanting to import into the new database. Oh well, I don’t mind, just will take me a few more days to get everything around.
The Old Posts of Amarantine
I don’t really know if I want to keep trying to get the old database to import or if I just want to scratch it. I can re-type the pages here for the most part. I am really thinking of letting the past be the past & just completely starting over here. I have the gallery images uploaded on the server so I can get the galleries back up as soon as the pages are re-implemented. I still need to get some of the extra images uploaded to the servers, but I am trying to be very selective about what I put up cause I am not wanting to overload the space I have. Though I honestly doubt that I will ever run out of disc space or bandwidth, but you never know. :???:
New Theme?
I forget how much I hate using other people’s themes & layouts. So I will be creating one of my own. Some how, some way. I don’t care if I have to frankin it. I have downloaded Melly’s Clean & Nekkid themes & we are going to use her WP coding so hopefully I can handle the other part of the coding. This theme is about to kill me, lol. :lol:
Well, I tried. I backed everything up in the database on the old server. Just like Jem told us to in her blog. Followed every instruction she gave me. Worked the last time I did it. This time it didn’t. It keeps telling me that I have a error with a repeat ‘1′ on key 1. Huh? Yeah, like I understand MySQL databases. But I am not going to bug Jem & the person that I usually ask isn’t talking to me. So I am re-building my book library, the old posts are gone, I will be working on my QBee quilt tomorrow (providing I feel well enough).Though given how I feel today & the amount of pain I am in right now it maybe next Friday before everything gets done. The dial up at home isn’t working very well & Friday may be the next day I have a chance to get to the office. I have a dental appt. tomorrow. I HATE DENTISTS! But I have to have my teeth fixed since my Topamax breaks them down & destroys them. So until I have the chance to re-build the pages, galleries, etc this is just going to be a blog front page. Sorry.
I also remember why I built my own themes. It is irritating to have to use someone else’s. :twisted: :twisted:
I am a 29yr old sassy woman that enjoys making friends. I do have a seizure disorder so that makes it hard for me to be online & I do tend to forget things, so you may have to remind me sometimes. I am a little quiky & a little crazy, but very friendly. In my spare time I enjoy reading & counted cross stitch when my disorder allows me to stitch which is usually only about 15 minutes at a time.
