Well, the hospital moved mom to Select hospital for re-hab. At Select they are a 55 bed hospital that is rehab based. It is like a boot camp. You are expected to get up twice a day & move. Mom is not big on moving or sitting up. She basically wants to lie in bed & watch tv all day. Which, of course, is not a good thing. So now we are trying to determine if it would be a good thing to tell her & see if that would make her work harder *I don’t think it would, just make her give up* or keep mum about it & just encourage or play bad cop again with her. I just don’t know what to do with this. Now we find out that we may have a problem putting her in a skilled care home due to all of her medical needs. The case worker told Dad that she has had to place one as far as Chicago before. I am hoping that at the farest it will be Jefferson City. That way she will still have visitors that are family. If it is more then 60 miles away Dad & I will not be able to see more then maybe once a month. I don’t think I can live without seeing her for that long. I am severely having a problem with this. I already feel like half of me is missing, I don’t need that missing half to move that far away from me.

The rest is just mostly rants about cleaning & yarn stash.

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My mother was pack rat along with a compulsive shopper. Basically, if something caught her eye she bought it whether we needed it or not. So anything & everything is in the house. If we didn’t have a place to put it, the item got put on the floor. So instead of actual floors, we have pathways through most of the rooms in the house.

A little background. The house was built in the 1930’s & is very small. It is a two bedroom, one bathroom house which can be very interesting with a father & daughter living together. We have a very small kitchen & a very small living room. Almost no storage place & so everything has the place for it & everything has to be a certain size, lol. Quite a pain when you need to get new furniture & it can only be a certain size.

Well, with both Mom & me crochet at the time, mom went a little (more then a little) crazy with buying yarn. You know those 18 gallon storage boxes you can get at Wal-Mart or Target? Well, I have about six of them to go through organize & figure out what to do with it. I already know that it is going to be mostly cotton & acrylic from Sugar-N-Cream, Peaches & Cream, & Red Heart Super Saver. Most of the skeins are only one or two of each color so I am thinking that I will do a lot of stash busting projects even if the yarn will not match each other. Mom liked variegated only yarn & I like solids so that it goes with most everything. So I am thinking I will make afghans using white or cream solids to separate the different variegated yarns. What do you think?

But first we have to clean & toss all the junk & stuff that we don’t need. I don’t even want to think about how much trash we are going to create cleaning the house. There is so much that is going to be tossed it isn’t even funny. Though I would trade it all for Mom to be well & like she was when I was a child.


Knit Picks Review

Ok, as most of you know I recently ordered the “Try It” Needle Set from Knit Picks(KP) along with about six skeins of yarn to make the $50 for free shipping. Two of those skeins were sock yarn for Dad, two skeins of cotton for dishcloths, & two skeins for me. With the “Try It” Needle Set you receive a size 6 Harmony wood tip, a size 7 Nickel plated tip and a size 8 Zephyr acrylic tip, and two 24″ cables. Ok, before these I have only had Susan Bates and/or Boyle needles. So yeah, big surprise. I was hoping to like the Zephyr acrylic tips, but I can feel them strain under my knitting. Yes, they are flexible & KP will replace it if it breaks, but I don’t want to have to wait for it. So the Zephyrs are out of the running for my interchangeable set. Next I tried the Harmony Wood ones & I, honestly, didn’t want to like these cause they were the most expensive option. Now, I know there are those of you that swear by wood needles, but I snap them like butter. Same problem as with the Zephyrs. *side note: I break plastic size H crochet hooks, so it wouldn’t be surprising for me to snap these* So I have two done for the count & hoping that the Nickel Plated ones will work. I really want an interchangeable set for shawls & I like working with circulars better then straights. Easier on my wrists & hands. I also taught myself on metal needles & I don’t have the problem of my stitches coming off the needles like others do. (Think I knit it to tight) So I knitted my next row, on my needle row, onto the Nickel plated US#7 from my pink Susan Bates & started going to town. :yikes: :yikes: :yikes: I kid you not. I am not a speed knitter, very slow compared to my crocheting speed. I can whip out a crochet piece in about half the time it takes me to knit something, but that wasn’t the point of me learning. I timed myself for a Susan Bates needle row (approx. 80 stitches in a 4×2 rib pattern) it took me about 10 minutes to complete one row across. With the Nickel Plated US#7 from Knit Pick it takes me about 7 minutes to complete one row. That is a three minute difference. I know, not much, but with how quickly I get bored with stitch patterns, it is amazing that I have shaved off three minutes off my row time. I even think it is more then that now that I am used to the needles.

So will I be getting the other sizes that I want/need from Knit Picks? Oh yeah, I already have them sitting in my cart. I will be getting a US7, US9, & a US11. I use US7 for just about everything, so I like have two of those. The 11s are for my bulky yarn & the 9s are for those in between yarns. I already have the US5 tips for the socks & the 47″ cable, but I have a 30″, 37″, & 60″ cables sitting in the cart also. I need the 60″ cable for the shawl I want to do. Plus the yarn for the shawl & more sock yarn. Hee hee, have to finish the trial sock & Dad’s first pair to see if he wants more socks made first. Though I don’t think I will have to worry too much. I won’t have the money to purchase this set of $50 until the middle of Sept. or Oct. :roll: But that will make the getting of it that much more special.

Have I bored you completely yet? No? Good.

My point is, if you are looking for an interchangeable needle set & are not sure whether you want wood, acrylic, or metal. I would order the “Try It” Needle Set from Knit Picks. The set is only $19.99 & they will replace the needles or cable if you manage to break them. *under severe punishment warning if I break mine, lol* Just kidding. The only reason I was able to get these now was because Dad was kind enough to foot half the bill for me. Since I can’t work or have an income (disability & medicaid), I have no money except what they give me. Usually they give me about $20-$40 a month to play with. *Thanks Dad* :luv: Yeah, I would get used to me talking about him.

My Weight Loss

Well, you all should know by now that I am an overweight woman. Now I am not going to sit here & bash myself telling you that I hate myself or my curves. Hell no, I love every inch of my curves. They are, every inch of them very dear to me. They made me who I am. Nothing will ever change that. But, that doesn’t mean that I don’t wish I weighed less, lol. I will always be a “big woman” nothing short of plastic surgery will ever change that, & I will never ever touch that unless it is for medical reasons (i.e. Bubs). Now I can say that if I find out I have breast cancer, I will just chop the girls off & be free of them. *Hey, you carry around DDs & see how your back feels, lol*

Anyway back on track here. My main problem is that I want clothes that fit & not have to order out of a bloody catalog. I hate that. I want to be able to go into Wal-Mart & buy clothes. I want to be able to knit clothing from patterns. I can’t do any of that with most clothing because they do not go up to my size. I wear anything between the size of 34W to 36W or 4X to 5X depending on the brand & my comfort level. In other words, if I want the men to stare at the girls & have me smack them or if I am hiding the girls, lol. I have been looking for a short sleeved cardigan for the last five years. Yes, I said years. I can’t find one that I like. *I don’t wear sleeveless shirts, ever* So after I learned to knit I realized that I could knit one. Yay, I thought I can make it is exactly how I want. Nope, none in my size & I didn’t really want to have to figure out the measurements to make it fit me.

Then I find out that I am not going to get off the stupid diabetes meds unless I loss some weight & ease the stress on me. Hmm…now there are two reasons. Then I find out that Dad’s blood pressure is a little high & his cholesterol is just a tad high but nothing to worry about or to treat yet. So now there are five things. So I have sat & thought about it for the last week & decided that I will go on a mild & meek weight loss. Then I started my research cause I am still working on building up my strength back from my hospital stay & I am severely out of shape. Plus, it is the middle of summer which means heat & my meds screw with my body temp so where it may be 80 outside my body tells me it is 100 & I have huge problems. So I have to find ways to exercise without overheating. But at the same time, I don’t want to join a gym due to money issues. Danged if I do & danged if I don’t, lol. But Dad & I are going to start hitting the Springfield Nature Center for the hiking trails. I still remember being able to walk the long trail (about 2 miles) without being out of breath or winded. I would like to get down to a 2X or around 250pounds. I know I would still be obese, but I wouldn’t be as bad as I am now. Dammit, I have sexy legs & I want to wear a damn miniskirt without feeling like a bloody whale, lol.

What is going to kill me is giving up my Dr. Peppers, but I know that it will be good for me. But I do like tea, so I will just have to remember to order tea & try to get away from sweetening it too death, lol.

I came across this page on ZenHabits & it makes a lot of sense to me.
Zen to Slim: A Simple, 5 Step Weight Loss Plan
Basically, it goes like this.

  1. Step 1: Begin gradual exercise
  2. Step 2: Replace fatty and greasy foods with healthier foods.
  3. Step 3: Eat smaller meals, more frequently.
  4. Step 4: Intensify exercise slowly.
  5. Step 5: Replace sugary foods with healthier treats.

No, this isn’t going to be a quick thing. I imagine it is going to take me about three years or longer, but I know if I try to stick to a strict diet I will just fail. Just like if I try to keep a food diary of everything I eat, I will cheat & not do it. I have tried them all. Dad also says that the Methodist Manor in Marionville will let us use the fitness center for $23 a month if we want, but I just don’t know if I want to work out with people that are in their 80s & 90s watching me, though that is probably my speed right now, lol.

So I will just tell you this now. Expect a lot of bitching. If there is one thing I hate is to go one a diet & exercise. To me there is nothing worse. So if I am complaining a lot just remind me that once the weight comes off it will be worth it. Cause I sure ain’t going overseas weighing what I weight. I can do this, Mom is not going to be around to sabotoge me this time so I CAN DO THIS! :dance: :dance: :dance: :dance:

Quick Note

Hee, hee on of the reasons I love this template is the simple fact that I can change the header image as much as I want or even make it change on every page. Guess what? It now has about 10 or 12 different images to rotate through on the pages. Enjoy them. Just remember that I am a tiger, leopard, basically any cat fan so there is a lot of them. These are not my photos. :happy:

Also to give you warning, there are going to be a few changes happening. With Mom now fairly settled, Dad & I are making the decision that we have to get at least a semblance of a life back. Which means I can start putting other things into effect that I have been waiting for. So keep watch & if you don’t mind I can use the support from all my friends in the coming days & weeks. :duh:

Needle Roll (knitting)

The only good thing that has come from Mom being in the hospital is the crafting time. I have been looking for a knitting needle case for about the past month. No luck under $50, which I am not going to pay. So, I need to practice anyway, I make my own. I have three sets of 14in & about 4 sets of 10in long needles. Ok, needs to hold them all & non fall out. This is going to be interesting as such I am not following a pattern & just putting it together as I go, lol. *anyone else scared yet? I sure am.*

No your eyes are not fooling you. I am doing straight back & forth knitting on circular knitting needles. The circular needles help with the weight of the cotton yarn. I am using scraps from dishcloths, bags, basically any cotton that is sitting in my scrap bag, so this roll is going to be weird looking. Little pink, lots of white (don’t like using white very much). So far, I have knit one row, purl one row, knit three row, then knit 5 stitches, knit 2 stitchse, purl 4 stitches across until the last 5 stitches which I knit. I will continue that last row until it is the length I want. *I need ribbing practice* Why all the stitch markers? Hee hee, I forget when to knit or purl, so every time the stitch changes I put a marker so that extra step of slipping the marker makes me realize that I need to move the yarn either to the front or back. I don’t remember if I read it on one of my knitting blogs or if I thought of it. Though you do have to pay attention to make sure you don’t stitch the marker into the stitch cause then you would have to break the marker or un-ravel the knitting to get it out, lol. *hint-I did that last night & had to un-ravel about six rows of my cowl* But I am happily, or at least as happy as I can be, knitting & purling along with my needle roll right now.

Next Up:

Yep, I am purely crazy. I need a craft bag & all the ones I buy keep getting tore or they break. So I figured I would make one & see how it held up. I am going to make it using two strands of this yarn & color:

Knitting Patterns

Look at this. Isn’t it simply to die for? I really need a baby to knit & crochet for.
Plum Blossom by Justine Turner
I love the colors how the grey & the pinks mix. It just makes me want to knit it up, but I don’t have anyone to give it to. Though I would pay the $8.44 & snap it up quick as a wink if I did have someone to make it for.

Now this is the shawl of shawls. This is called Peacock Shawl. This baby is huge. The shawl measures 72″ in diameter when blocked. It is knitted in lace, I haven’t even begun to dream about learning lace knitting. I can crochet lace, knit no. Crochet is hard enough for my big fingers, but this shawl makes me want to learn. It comes the book, “A Gathering of Lace” & is designed by Meg Swansen.
Peacock Shawl by Meg Swansen

One more then I will shut up about patterns. This one I couldn’t resist & bought the pattern for. The cuteness was way to much to resist. May I introduce you to the one & only “The Beekeeper’s Quilt”……
Beekeeper Quilt by tiny owl knits Beekeeper Quilt by tiny owl knits
Is it not the cutest thing you have ever seen? :luv: I held off from purchasing it for about three days before I crumbled. Here is the funny thing. The quilt is made entirely of what Tiny Owl Knits calls Hexipuffs (love the name). Here are two more pics of the cute, little, squishy, Hexipuffs.
Beekeeper Quilt by tiny owl knits Beekeeper Quilt by tiny owl knits
Those are adorable. Tiny Owl Knits says that you can stuff them *as in the pics* or you can leave them unstuffed. They use sock yarn, but I am going to see about using my worsted weight scraps. I would love to make enough to cover my full bed, but I am guessing that would be in the millions of hexipuffs, lol. Though I may get it down, you never know. Could make it an ongoing project that never ends, lol. *Hmmm….sounds like an interesting idea*

*All pictures in this post belong to their respected owners. I did not take this pictures & all rights remain to their owners.*

I know I have been spotty on the internet lately & I know I will continue to be so until things with my mother settle down. Mom is at the point that she understands that she will probably die in the hospital & has become very quiet, sleeping a lot, & complacent with the nurses. I don’t know if she is going to ask that she be turned over to Comfort Care (let to die on her terms, no more dialysis, only treatment is to give her comfort until she passes) or continue to fight to try & get better. I honestly don’t know if she has it in her anymore to fight this battle. She seems so weak, but we are seeing some improvement in her. Now if we can just get Medicaid to help (her medical bills are over $700,000 already & climbing more everyday) we would be ok. I am at the point of “hoping for the best, but expecting the worst” with her. I honestly expect her to pass away. I just hope that it will be a painless & quick death. Though I know that I will be completely lost once it actually happens.