Everything is moving so fast. I don’t know how to keep up. Dad & I are getting used to being without Mom hate it. The worst part is that we are both the type of person that “goes with the flow” & so choosing where to go or where to eat is difficult because both of don’t really care. Needless to say it can take us all day to choose something, lol. The main thing we both agree on is Mom.
Mom is still in the hospital. The doctor’s still give her less then 10% chance of making it out alive. If she makes it then it will be to a long term skilled care facility. That was not what we (Dad & I) or mom wanted, but if she is willing to do it then I am not going to complain.
She actually seems to be willing to work with physical therapy this time around & she is telling us (mouthing since she doesn’t have the speech valve on the trach tube yet) that she is hungry & wants to drink. So that is wonderful. Yesterday she actually agreed to let them sit her up on the side of the bed. She only sat for a couple of minutes, but she sat up & wasn’t bitchy or fighting with them to do it. This is a wonderful thing.
Though I hate to be pessimistic, I am so afraid that this is just the calm before the storm. I just have this feeling that she is going to move backwards again & if she does move backwards she will give up completely. If she codes out again, the doctors don’t think she will come out of it again. Her heart already has a flutter in it & her lungs & brain already have been damaged. Unfortunately, we don’t know how badly they have been damaged. I am just terrified that my best friend is going to die on me & there is nothing I can do to stop it. I am just taking everything one day at a time & praying that I get to keep her for a little longer. I don’t know what else to do.
I am planning on making hats for myself & possibly to sell, though I doubt if any will get sold cause I will probably give them away, lol. I bought the yarn just because I loved the colors in it. I had no idea what to use it for until I saw the hat on Raverly. Then I knew what it was going to be used for.
If you remember I was going to make a quilt for my double bed out of the colors of Water & Earth. Well, I got four blocks down & just can’t tell myself that the colors go together so I am using the yarn for other small projects.
My Dad bought me two new crochet hooks. They are normal metal hooks from the flat up & bamboo below. Since the bamboo is a thicker handle it doesn’t make my hand cramp when I crochet all day. So far I have a G (4.0mm) & a H (5.0mm). Dad says that as I need other sizes he will get them. These are made by Susan Bates. The only two brands I have access to are Broyle & Susan Bates. I can interchange the use of either brand, though I prefer Susan Bates. I love the thicker handle of my new hooks. :luv: :luv: :luv:
I have finally gotten started on Lori’s commission. Frederick has his own place in the galleries now so you can visit him there, lol. I am going to have a hard time letting this one go, I know. Want to know why? This is the design.Clicking on the picture will take you to the gallery page.